25 Things About Me

1. i'm excited to find a job and move on to that phase of my life regardless of the rest of my personal life...that's new.
   
2. i like to sing in the car...loudly, obnoxiously, and while drumming on the steering wheel when appropriate...of course not in front of other people
3. t shirt bed sheets are heavenly
4. i dislike showering in the morning
5. i like my hair curly just as much as i like it straight, sometimes better
   
6. i am a happy person most of the time
7. not many people understand my sense of humor, which is sad because some people just think i'm mean
8. i like to use "...." a lot
9. i really do prefer soy milk to regular milk
10. i would probably not mind being a vegetarian if big greasy hamburgers were allowed
11. i'm extremely impatient, but i'm pretty good at waiting impatiently
12. the more research i do, the less convinced i am that there is such a definite concept as "soulmates"
13. if i could have a dog, i would name it Peabody
14. i have cravings for strange things, like the ocean, spooning, and cheese steaks
15. i like to watch movies, but good books are still better
16. i just can't sit and watch the whole season of something in one shot without getting bored
17. my favorite jelly beans are the light purple ones or mint ones
18. someone today asked me which Disney prince i would marry: it would be the Beast
19. i hate going to the gym, however i love being in shape
20. text messages make me happy
21. i don't like awkward silences and try pathetically to fill them
    
22. i struggle to find a balance between putting effort into things, and letting things just happen
23. i do believe that there are certain people who are just meant to be with each other
    
24. i'm a hippy at heart...like the Van Morrison song..."a gypsy soul"
25. i am done with grad school :)
    

So Sick of Love Songs, So Tired of Tears

Here are my top favorite love songs of the week. Research them at your leisure.

Everything by Michael Buble

Crazy Love by Van Morrison (the version with Bob Dylan too is even better)

She is Love by Parachute VA (yes from the lotion commercial)

Lets Stay Together by Al Green

For the Longest Time by Billy Joel

The end :)

Realize

"Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you?

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you."

What am I to you?

"What am I to you?
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call?
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darling true
What am I to you?"

I've Been MIA

"To know is nothing, to imagine is everything."

Always be classy, never be crazy...

So I read 187 pages today about "He's Just Not That Into You." There is nothing better than a book that strikes every note of the turmoil in your soul.

And so I share these pieces with you:

"A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should ONLY be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person. If he's not trying to romance your socks off with dates, flowers, and poetry, it should be because he's too engrossed with his couples counseling workbooks and is prioritizing getting back on the right track. If he's not doing any of that, he may love you, miss you, but ultimately, he's just not THAT into you."

"Love cures commitment phobias."

"A man who is really into you is going to want you all to himself."

"But all I can say is that I suffer from the affliction of believing I can have a wonderful man love me AND be wildly attracted to me."

"Maybe this is just me, because my priorities have changed as I've gotten older. But now I don't want to be "sort of dating" someone. I don't want to be "kinda hanging out" with someone. I don't want to spend a lot of energy suppressing all my feelings so I appear uninvolved."

"What kind of knuckle head has a problem marrying the love of his life?"

"(About breaking up) A guy says he doesn't want to be with you. Sometimes that guy realizes he's made the biggest mistake of his life. And then sometimes he doesn't. Either way, your only job is to move on with your life, and fast. He can always try to chase you down as you are running down the block."

"If the person you "love" (notice the snotty quotation marks around that) cannot FREELY spend his days thinking about you and being with you, it's not real love."

"If he is really into you, he will get over his issues fast and make sure he doesn't lose you. Or he will make it clear to you how he feels, so there's no mystery, and tell you upfront that he's not up to it right now. And then you can best be sure, that the minute he is ready, he will run out and find you."

"The operative word in both cases here is "wait." You have to do the waiting - the biding your time, biting your tongue, keeping your needs quiet. He's so special, that guy. He deserves to have you sit around, putting your life on hold, not getting what you want, while he takes his time sorting it all out. He's that special. You, of course, aren't at all."

"At the very least, he should be asking you what kind of underwear you are wearing."

"I believe in love the verb, not the noun."

"Please remember that nothing is worse than longing for someone who doesn't want you. Even loneliness is better because with loneliness at least you have hope and possibility and imagination."

"A muffin is a toned down cupcake, don't let anyone tell you differently."

"So I say "Fuck Statistics." It's your life - how dare you not have faith in it!"

The Drive Home Song of the Day

"I am driving up 85 in the
kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom

Four more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
wood in places to make it feel like home
but all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
or just the stirring in my soul

Either way, I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on me
but it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
that's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
still "Everything happens for a reason"
is no reason not to ask myself

If I'm living it right
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, tell me why
Why, why Georgia why?"

Why Georgia, John Mayer